Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
– Randall Terry
My toxic element briefly came back into my life again. Shame on me, I allowed it to happen. It was enough to ruin Father’s Day for me.
This is my way of coping and I needed to vent. It seemed to help the last time. Also there’s a special friend that helped me through it even though she doesn’t even know it.
It’s amazing how quickly she can turn my mood and life upside down. I can’t let it affect me anymore than it already has. I already gave her more though and time than she ever deserves from me.
I thought she was completely out of my system and I hadn’t thought of her in a while. I was 100% happy with her out of my life. Why did I let her back in?
Her negative effect on me manifests itself physically . My body gets hot as if I have a fever and my chest pounds.
She strolled in and out of my life with her perfectly sculpted ass for a few days and the whole thing got me all rattled in ways that it shouldn’t. I should be in control of my emotions.
I’m I hurt? I’m I simply upset that I let her do this to me?
I know I deserve better. I know I shouldn’t have answered her text. I should have blocked her number in the new phone too.
In either case, I can’t let this episode throw off my progress. I need to keep on going and ensure it never happens again.
Thanks for reading. I didn’t want to end on a bad note.
I’m glad I have this outlet now and get this thoughts out of system.
I need to remind myself of how fortunate I am and I need to be thankful for it all. I can’t take for granted my loved ones who are and will always be here for me.